It started my last year of high school and I got pregnant at the age of 19 , my baby was due in September and i was so excited scared all the emotions you get your fist time , one thing that did not cross my mind was what happened July 22 2002,

I started to feel some pain so I though ...meh... maybe I over did the day , so i went down to rest , I woke up to a pain that drove me nuts , I was so scared , but I was told alot of people mistake Braxton hicks for real labour well i had no way to the hospital which was 30 min away ,so I tried to walk it off that made it hurt worse , about 4 hours later my ex came in the door and saw how I was and called the hospital to see if I should go they were like ummm ya i was 4 min apart and in alot of pain

it's hard to know what happened It all was a blur in 30min from getting in the hospital and my baby comming out was 30 min I was in shock , my baby not once cried and doctors everywhere all I heard was a squick amd "It's a Boy" then he was carried away

I cried . a helicopter came and air lifted him to Ottawa's Childrens Hospital Of Eastren Ontario , the doctor came in and said he was in bad shape and would release me ASAP

when i was released i went to see Braxton(my boy) In the hospital He was so small 2 lbs 14 oz he was in an Incubator with wires and bells and whissles going off i was balling my eyes out ,A nurse took us into a room where they told me he has on under delevloped lung and one has collapsed he has fluid going into the one lung and needed to do a bunch of stuff and he had a hole in his heart which they have gave him meds but nothing has changed they were going to give him one more does and if that did not take they would have to do open heart surgery and the chances of him living were not good after they said that the room started to sound hallow and I was praying for god to take me not him at that point

After 3 weeks he was at 75% Oxgyn and was transford to a hospital closer to home In Kingston Genreal Hospital I was all alone no one to cry to , no one to just be there , I had no food no money or a place to stay , I came with Braxton with what I had on ,

I was thinking what eles could go wrong , well i was answered by Braxton flat lined on me 3 times in 2 days , wow he went back up to 80% Oxygen , his heart rate was verying from 78-101 it would dip then come back up , I cried so much ,

After about 4 weeks he was doing so much better good enough I could try and breastfeed i would pump mostly but we tried what a trooper he was, I never left his side , My ex and I broke up and I was on my own

He was 4 lbs 12oz when I got to bring him home , some people would hate me for saying this but i may not belive in god BUT I do belive in miracles because I have witnessed one :)

Today he is a healthy 6 year old boy and loves science :)